Get it Right

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?

So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right

This is so my theme song right now. It's almost like I wrote this song. Everything I'm feeling right now is reflected back in musical form. I feel like I try and try and try to do what is right and what is expected of me only to have it thrown back in my face either by people I don't know or people I thought were my friends.

I try to spare people's feelings as much as I can even when I'm being attacked but sometimes I can't hold it in anymore. I normally just take what is thrown at me because I don't want the person throwing it to feel bad. And yet here I am sitting in bed at noon sobbing. I so wish that I could just run away and never come back. I wish I could erase people from my life forever. I can't wait to be done with high school. I can't wait to get out of here.

Apparently my good isn't good enough yet. And my best intentions have sure made messes. Everything I touch just seems to crumble. Life isn't fair and I know this but sometimes I wish something would work out. Everything is just falling apart.